To feel things so intensely it hurts. This is an everyday thing for me. Happy or sad. Why are some of us wired to feel so deeply?
I really wish sometimes that I could just not feel. Then maybe I could think clearer. When things happen and emotion spins out of control you go numb. Do you laugh or do you cry.
I am beginning to think that this is why I cannot get control of my life. There is no happy medium. You feel every emotion to the core of your very being. It is one of the driving forces that tend to make me keep to myself. Why invite people to the madness.
On the rare occasion you feel grounded something happens. The carpet is pulled right out from under you. You are on your ass again. It is much better to suffer through this alone. This we all know is not a logical thought. But if I can't stand me why should anyone else.
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feeling too passionate is the curse of our birth right! Its the gift of our fucked up childhood. I wish I could be there right now, we would go for coffee and just be! Maybe I can catch ya later today on the phone. Love ya.
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