Being One Of The Beautiful People........

I often wonder what it would be like to be one of the beautiful people. Have you ever noticed they seem to have their own language only travel with other beautiful people and for all intensive purposes seem to have the world at their feet.

Maybe I think about it too much. But how can you not when the media dictates that beauty sells everything from toothpaste to high end luxury items. Beautiful people even sell goods for fat people when they have never been fat a day in their life. But yet it is suppose to convince me that I would look just as good.

The only people to ever have mind blowing sex would be the beautiful people as well and they are the only ones to fall in love. This according to media, movies and books. No wonder I have fallen prey to staring and lusting after those men who are molded like an Adonis. Fat chance of having mind blowing sex with one of them.

I have a son, he would fall into this category. I had an ortho doctor so much as say he was perfect. Perfect weight ,perfect body. Went as far as to say guys would kill for his body. The man child has the beauty to attract women as well as men. Either he does not know it or just does not care.

I have asked him on several occasions what it like and he just looks at me like I am alien. I know that beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Just for once in our media driven society to see the reality of how life is lived with ordinary looking people just like me.

Her First Week With Him........

I swear it has taken but a nano second for that man to zap the life right out of her eyes. Monday last week I had to turn my niece over to her father. Why because the court said so. Would never have had happened had I money and connections.


She has spent the first week at his home mostly alone at night, having to medicate herself and eat alone. In the four days she has been there she has heard nothing but disparging remarks about her mother.


Due to transportation issues she was late to school two mornings in a row. Her afternoon meds were forgotten twice. She has been woke up in the night to hear her father and his fiancee (a term I use loosely) fighting because of money he has taken from her purse. Not to mention he has pawned some of her belongings. The fiancee not my niece as I did not let her take things of value with her.

She has been told she does not need a safety plan and that she is not to be calling anyone when he not there but her Grandmother, which is his mother. He also has informed her that as soon as his attorney gets back in town that he will make sure all this meddling ceases. To the point that it is none of the caseworkers business what goes on in his house. He obviously forgot to read the placement papers that she is still a ward of the state.


Plus, did he not hear the judge say the her caseworker, guardian ad litem, therapist all have access to her announced and unannouced? Furthermore he has instructed her that she needs to be retaught how to do things as her Aunt (meaning me) has rasied her children improperly. That is why my children have lived in the same house for the last 14yrs have both parents active in their lives and don't have to worry about food, clothing and shelter.


By the grace of God I have her Friday's afterschool till Sunday evenings let's see how long this last. What excuse will he use. Friday morning before she left for school he instructed that if anyone questions her about what goes on in his house they need to talk to him. Closed his statement with that he was mad at me. Whatever. Fear, intimidation and alienation typical asshole tatics to make a child conform. Oh did I mention this all occurred from around 4pm Monday till Friday at 6:45am not even a full week.


This from a man who sat in the courtroom begging for his right to be a father..........