Today I was watching a movie. "You Got Mail" to be exact. It is one of my favorite among a sea of many. As I watched the movie I tried to think back to a time that would mold my idea of love, marriage, family.
I don't come from a Ward and June Cleaver family. My mother has been married three times. I can't remember much if anything of her marriage to my father. The second marriage was to a monster. Her third is probably the marriage she wished had been her one and only.
So where do I get this idea about love and how it should be. God knows my own track record has not been all that great. I have discovered within my own being I am in love with being in love. The dating getting to know one another, flirting talking hours on end and the real or imagined great sex in the early stages of a relationship.
Where did the notion of the knight in shining armour coming and sweeping you off your feet, protect you and provide you with life's comforts come from. It cannot be a southern upbringing due to being a service brat.
Maybe the fact that at some point early in my life I used movies to escape the reality of my daily life. Or the fact society condidtions us. Combination of the two perhaps.
So today as I watched the movie that I could usually find some solace for even a short time I found to be very painful. I look forward to a time when I can find relief in something I find comforting even if only for a couple of hours.
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You speak the truth!! Sometimes, movies that used to bring me solace, relief and even happiness only bring me depression, pain and loneliness.
That's why I try to only watch 'em when I'm in a good mood and am willing to open my mind and heart to the Glass is Half Full Theory. I'm starting to realize that movies are entertainment and while they can be a sort of emotional crutch, they should not be used for that sole purpose.
Awesome, awesome entry!!
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