Needless to say this has never been a favorite day to have to do something for someone that you just don't feel it for. But I will bite it and be thankful for the things he does do. But here in this venue I will voice how I truly feel.
As usual it is putting up with his attitude. Could tell it would be tense from the get go. Called him on the phone and he was like I am hungry now. Mind you it is 9:30am and the boys are still asleep. Why because they felt it more important to stay up till the wee hours. So I said will an hour be too long? Do you want us to pick you up or what. He stated he would head our way in an hour. So finally everyone is ready within the hour. An hour and half later I am calling him and shock shock he is still at home.
So he gets there doesn't come in but goes down the street to a neighbors house. Which is a whole other blog for another day. So I tell the kids he is here lets go and to get in the car. So he comes walking up the street and off we go.
Once again we are going to the place where he djs on Thursdays. All about show blah blah blah blah. That truly is what it sounds like when he talks to me anymore. Adult ADHD kicks into full gear and I want to run screaming in the opposite direction.
So naturally he has to make sure everyone there knows he has arrived and if he sees someone he is not familiar with he has to introduce himself. Oh and let them know he is there on Thursdays. So needless to say "Thank you Jesus" we only have to do this once a year.
So during coversation it was strained and he always tries to be such an ass, well guess what stop trying cause you are. So when he would say something to try and get under my skin. I would respond no biggie or just did what you requested.
Today though I am sure I took it to a whole new level when I boldly announced that he did not need to feel any obligation to my birthday as it is on a Saturday and I am sure that he has other plans. So he popped back he did not feel obligated and I said whatever. But like I said I am on my own this year. I didn't want to have to plan my birthday around anything he may have going on.
So his final attempt to get under my skin as we are leaving the restaurant he asks the hostess so how late are we open tonight. "WE" I am sure the owner would like some help with the bills in that case. She said 9:30pm and he said I will see you later as me and some friends are coming by.
So we go home and do the gift card thing and as soon as we are done with that he jets. I am relieved the whole thing is over. I am sure that many of you wonder why I would even continue if I find it so very very painful.
The bottom line is I want my children to do the right thing. They are his children and he does right by them. So if I am expected. I will be there and have bells on if necessary. Just so my children have one more thing in their lives that I did not. A father that loves them though at times has an odd way of showing it.
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