In October it will be a year that you left me. Yes I say me, because I know truth be told I pulled away along time ago. For whatever reason, out what I thought was respect for the new wife or just some sense of stupidity.
It was very vivid dream we were walking talking and laughing. You called me your buddy said you could tell me anything. Are you trying to tell me something now? I am not sure where the big ole car came from in my dream. That was odd.
I miss you more each day and the one thing that kept the feeling that you were here if only in spirit has gone and is now with you. All that is left is your earthly belongings and soon they will be gone too.
It has been awhile since I have dreamed of you. I am happy and sad all at the same time. Your son wants me to be there to help go through things. I am not sure that I can do this. I find comfort just to sit there and think about all the memories. Twenty five years other than immeadiate family is the longest relationship I have ever had.
I am thankful everyday that I was there to hold your hand and tell you that I loved you. You were as close to me as my own mother. I thought of you as mom, but never spoke it for fear of upsetting others. That is the unfortunate thing some of us do, is worry about others needs instead of our own.
Till we meet again in my dreams...missing you.....more everyday.....
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Oh sure make me cry at 3 in the morning. My dear sister this is beautiful, and I know Bonnie knew how you felt, she felt as if you were her daughter, she always told me how much she loved you! feel good in the comfort of your dream, you will someday be re-united with her. I love you too, so don't go looking for a reunion too soon, even though i don't get to chat with you much, I think of you always!! Much Love from your crazy ass sister up north!
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