Could it be just the birthday blahs?

I figure today is as good a day as any to start a blog. You ever have a day that you feel like can it get any worse? Well I am having that kinda of week. Birthday blues maybe or the fact my youngest child has been sick for over a week and the doctor says it is just viral. There is a dinner celebration planned but truth be told I would rather skip it. If it were just gonna be my children it would be great. But due to their ages their father will be present since he is picking up the tab. Boy do I sound ungrateful. My sister called today and has given her excuses on why she can't do anything for me. What is different from years past? A call to say Happy Birthday would be plenty but then were is the drama in that. Back to the dinner. My children's father and I have been separated for the last four years but yet we still do certain things together birthdays, holdiday so on and so forth. It amazes me to listen to him talk about this so called good relationship we have. One day reality will set in. Yeah it is good as long as he is talking about himself so I just listen and listened for an hour and half. How does one tell someone else just give a divorce for my birthday that would the greatest present. Sad to say but I truly think that he without knowing it is reliving his parents relationship to a degree. But I suppose that is a whole other day to blog. I know I should just snap out of this funk and be thankful for my health, healthy children and the fact they have a father that cares enough to be involved.